Friday, February 19, 2010

To have been loved or to never been shown love at all...

We just rented "The Time Traveler's Wife" and it made us all think and sad for different reasons. It made Allen sad because he was thinking what a torture it would be to travel like that and to not just lose your loved ones once, but over and over and over again. But it made me think... What about in my situation? My childhood sucked. Not just a little, but a lot. My mother has not been a good influence on my life and her manipulations tied my fathers hands (or so he thought) in order to show me any kind of affection. So it makes me wonder... which is worse (or better), to have been loved and to have lost or to have never been shown love at all?

I would never want to return to my childhood. I would want to make way too many changes. I would want to tell myself the ending to the story. Or in some cases, I would want to sit and listen to some of my favorite people that have passed tell me stories that I haven't heard in years. I would want to hug them and smell their perfume on them again. (It's not the same from the bottle, ya know). But all in all, it makes me wonder who I would actually want to visit. I never knew my grandparents and my parents were not the people they are now.

Who would you visit and why? What would you say to them?

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